Army and Failure....

So, I really love the Army. I love drilling and just overall being a soldier...However, for the first time since I have been in the Army, I failed at something. I took a test called Stripes for Skills. Basically, it's a test to see you 1) you are physically fit for a promotion, and 2) sees if you know enough about the army to be promoted. Physically, I was only 4 push-ups away from doing what I needed. I wasn't very happy with myself. Only 4 freaking push-ups. All through high school I gave everything I had in every sport that I had, and I was satisfied with that. But for once, I wasn't happy with what I did. I was shocked that I wasn't happy with myself. I gave everything I had in my body, and I still wasn't happy. Wow! I have never felt this bad in my life. I wanna be happy about it, but it's not what I wanted. I would have been PFC! I would have gone to basic training with the highest rank possible...but no. Unless I can get it done on Saturday, I am going in as a Private. Not First Class. GRRRRRR!!!